I have never felt so held… so cared for… so desired… so, so fucked… as I have when with Butler. These words are so unlike me but I have been changed by my journey with Butler. Let me explain. My kids have grown up and left to build their own lives. Their father left about the same time to chase a cute 30 something. I took solace in my career, and chocolate biscuits. Self medicating with chocolate biscuits does the trick, for a while, but after too long can take its toll. I have done OK in my career (actually, not OK, very well). I turned myself into an assertive and powerful woman and was leading a high performance team but then it clicked, the men in my life feared me. None, and I mean none desired me. Armed with this insight, and a new drive for personal growth I wondered if I was really more attracted to women. I Googled and discovered the wonderful world of private escorts and escort directories. I browsed, and pondered, and procrastinated, then took the plunge while on a business trip. She was beautiful and kind and tender, and I discovered that getting naked with another woman was not for me. The flame of desire had however been lit. Clicking around the escort directories some more, I discovered the world of male escorts. Flicking through the images of buffed gym types my eyes landed on Butler.. “Male escort | Aged 60+ | For mature woman”. Closer to my age than my children’s. He sounded perfect. I procrastinated again, then when on another business trip, took a deep breath and booked him for a three hour mix of social and bedroom time. We met for brunch where we talked, and talked, and talked. Butler has lived a fascinating life. We shared stories of parallel life experiences with kids and work, and Butler told stories of adventure travel and remote places. We grieved together about Australian politics, and climate change. We sensed the conversation was turning dark so headed for my hotel room. We touched, and kissed, and touched and time appeared to stop. I don’t know how it happened but my clothes were on the floor and I was on the bed being treated to the most glorious and immersive massage ever. I am going to stop because if I keep writing, I will slip back into my mental Butler space and not be able to function for the rest of the day. Sufficient to say, Butler is amazing. A truly beautiful human. Butler gave me exactly what I needed. I am now firmly on the path of self rediscovery. Reconnecting with my body, my desires, and the joy that comes from those delicious emotions triggered by divine sex. Thank you Butler for awakening me. You are my new, healthy addiction.. Ruth. x